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New Beginnings

2012-01-22T01:18:00.000-08:00

Carole Stolz22.01.2012 She saw the smoke, unseeing, like a bleeding internally, eternally, blindingly real. She steeled herself for the heat, treating her wounds already, Steadying her racing heart, pacing her martyred soul, …too old for this atrociuos game. Maiming, burning, turning, reflecting, not selecting but consuming, assuming the role of the Warlord, lording it over everything in its

The Maimed Soul

2012-01-14T16:06:00.000-08:00

Carole Stolz, 30th December 2011 (After reading Mona Krueger's book "Sage was the Perfect Shadow") I never really saw my life as blessed, I never learned to make my blessings count . Nor did I ever see the deaths as scarring - a tearing at my soul without a sound. The passing of my brother, Dad and sister - these scars they needed cream, massage and stretch. They should have seen the eyes and

Roger, Vienna, 15th December 2011

2011-12-20T01:42:00.000-08:00

Carole Stolz, in Vienna 15th December 2011 Roger, you passed from us this day - a loss so deep that all who knew you well will carry this scar forever. No hope for us that you are now with Him. Dancing, singing, preaching, joyous. We are miserable. Guilty in hopelessness, we should be happy, but we just aren't. Should smile for you, but we just can't. Forgive us, for now the miss is just

The Fountain Dancer

2011-05-14T01:14:00.000-07:00

Carole Stolz 12.05.2011(After watching the children play in the fountains of Warsaw) Fountains of wetness are watering the heavens,rising and risingas yeast rises bread.Raising the hopesof the little one dancingto a rhythm that's tappinginside of her head. This is her dream worldwhere fear is a fantasy,love a realityand pain's ne'er been seen.This is where rhythmwith water and

ChesterEastgate

2011-03-01T22:47:00.000-08:00

Chester last week. This is my "home" ie where I spent the last years in the UK. A most wonderful Roman City, 2000 years old in 1985. East Gate and the Victorian Eastgate clock View from "the Rows" The shops are on 2 levels, "Street level" and above them, "Row level" Some shops on Eastgate Joachim in "The Crypt"

The Lakes

2011-03-01T13:24:00.000-08:00

Wonderful to drive to the Lake District last week to pick up Jenny from her school. Derwent Water, one of the most beautiful parts of England!

3 of 3 : WITH OR WITHOUT

2011-01-19T17:31:00.000-08:00

Carole Stolz 19th January 2011 Some are without and some are with, even within.Let the reader alone decide which side he sides with. WITHOUT, not with. Alone... Hopeless... Helpless... Hapless Cold... Nightmare unfolding with no end to the abyss of loneliness. WITHOUT,not within. Outside. Not a partaker of the Maker's life.

2 of 3 : WITH

2011-01-19T17:27:00.000-08:00

by Carole Stolz 19th January 2011 She died, shortly, but soon glimmered a flimmer of hope as her heart, having lost its beat, surged to life once more. Oh the loss was real enough, knifelike in its pain. The scar still throbs with every beat of her broken heart.But through the tears of loss and of loneliness shines a clear image of a better day.A day when she will see that

1 of 3 : WITHOUT

2011-01-19T17:22:00.000-08:00

by Carole Stolz, 19th January 2011 She died,a long slow death of tiredness and weepingcold creeping into her bones,love seeping out of her heart, her existence, her being. Seeing only Hopelessness drawn as a painting before her eyesshe cries into the pillow...Heightened sensations born of despair, tear her apart. No taste for the future No sight of a rainbow No hearing of music

Loving Out Loud

2010-10-07T05:02:00.000-07:00

Have you seen the children in the city mall?Empty eyes and empty purses,empty hearts, mouths full of curses?Blades ripped through their tattooed arm,ever wondered why they want to harmthemselves?Ever wondered why they turned to theft?They once had a father who up and left,leaving them with hearts bereftof feeling,seeking love? Have you seen the lonely widow,whose husband died or simply walked?

We Are All Equal, But Not Equally Blessed,

2010-06-24T07:25:00.000-07:00

Carole Stolz 25th June 2010 Is 50 : 50 too much to ask?I think that we’re up to the task.Why do we have in excess,if not to give to those with less?What we have is a stewardship- not to shop or go on a trip.The only trip that we should makeis to visit the poor to see what’s at stake.They are dying from H.I.V. Aidsor in the factories we have madeor as slaves in an Asian bed,the light in the window

Gottes Geflüster

2010-06-24T06:51:00.000-07:00

Carole Stolz Hören, Zuhören - Hörst du mir zu?Um das zu machen, braucht man ein ich und ein du.Wenn ich ganz allein ist, hört ich gerne zu.Mit eine zweite anwesend, denn eine gibt Ruh. Hin und her, her und hinAbwechslung nötig für diesen SinnÜbung macht den Meister aber wollen wir das?Alleine zu reden macht viel mehr Spass! Kleinkinder verstehen nicht wie man das machtSie

Happy to Fear

2010-06-18T12:23:00.000-07:00

Carole Stolz 7th April 2010 As Adam and Mate the apple they ateand choked, and dying became their fate.Their minds were tainted.Openness and lack of shameturned to secrecy, shift of blameaccusations, truth painted. And so today we can’t think straight.Confused, puffed up, we learn to hatethe gifts which we should treasure.So beautiful bodies, a great self worthare sold out to sex and a dearthof

Human Trafficking, Albania-Western Europe

2010-06-18T10:26:00.000-07:00

Anna’s trafficker kept her in submission through physical abuse – beating her, raping her, and slicing her with knives. He abducted her from Albania and took her to a Western European country, where she was forced into prostitution for about five months. He then took her to a second Western European country, where she told border authorities she was traveling on a falsified passport in hopes of

Gone Fishing

2010-04-24T09:11:00.000-07:00

Carole Stolz 18th April 2010 Fishing has but one aim always the same – to catch fish.Not wishing just to influence,hence the rod, the line, the hook.No book on how to do ithits the fish on the head,...dead. Patiently I fish, with intent,bent on catching them.So men and women with time might bite.Contrite in their sinfulness, they confess;possess no thought except consuming needto heed Jesus.

The Bubble of God’s Love

2010-04-24T09:09:00.000-07:00

The Bubble of God’s Love(For my dear friends Chuck and Linda Lynch)Carole Stolz, 4th April 2010 The baby slides into the world into the perfect bubble.Mum and Dad adoringly protect her from the troubleas in her childhood, safe, secure she crawls and sits and standsthen totters her first step amidst applause from all her fans. But later on at five or six or nine, eleven or fourteenit may be

Just Hope

2010-04-07T00:57:00.000-07:00

Carole Stolz 31st March 2010 Hope is so elusive, can’t be caught or held or savedup. When we think that we are brave, can make it, that’s when the thief will take it and to the lions throw. And so we drift in hopeless fear of ever letting someone near enough to have us shed some tears which might reveal that we don’t knowthe answers to the questions growingwhere doubts till now did grow. Do

Honey, the Hound of the Baskervilles!

2010-04-05T15:03:00.000-07:00

Ever wonder what your dog is thinking when he dreams? Here are my thoughts on my dog, a soft cuddly Kuvasz who wouldn't hurt a thing! Honey, the Hound of the Baskervilles! Carole Stolz Hairy face, not a trace of worry there.Not a careexcept for eating meat and sleeping. Chasing deer and near enough to bite the flesh and feel it ripping.Moist and soft the blood

I Wish

2010-04-04T04:30:00.000-07:00

Carole Stolz 1.4.2010Can it be?Do you mean mewhen you talk of lying,what I took, the prideful walk,the haughty look, the sexand the drink which broughtme to the brink of despair?You weren’t there, were you?You didn’t care, did you? And now you ask a thing I cannot do.I realise at last that it was you who pulled me back...as I was going to jump...to end it all.But not a fall, a flight.You took me

Als die Welt hört auf zu atmen

2010-04-03T16:38:00.000-07:00

Carole Stolz Für Karfreitag 20101.Ich erzähle eine Geschichte wahrhaftig und wahrEine Woche nach dem Einzug in Jerusalem es war.Als wir gingen zum Garten, zu beten und warten.Ich konnte nicht ahnen, dass der Herr wird verraten. Judas kam geschlichen und gab Jesus zum Gruß- wie üblich für uns, auf die Wange einen Kuss (Sei es dass er immer in der Hölle verbrenntKeine Gnade, keine Liebe nur ewig

"Why Didn’t You Come Sooner?"

2010-03-30T00:24:00.000-07:00

Carole StolzTwenty seven million how can it be?27 million today are not free.Taken as prisoners beaten, abusedThree quarters in the sex trade so horribly used.Many of them children, raped daily by men.treated as animals, many still under ten. Have you a daughter, or niece or a wife?How would you like them to fear for their life?Tied to a bedEyes straight aheadSees the tormentor’s faceYet another

Just Death

2010-03-29T04:38:00.000-07:00

Carole StolzShe never knew love, being sold as a childinto the sex trade. By grown men defiledand used as an object of greed and of lust,Pain was her teacher, not something she’d read,she was wise beyond words but not in her head.Her survival instinct had shown her in bedthat the next man might maim her or kill her insteadof using her body in ways it might pleasea sick minded human with venereal

The Outsider

2010-03-28T11:19:00.000-07:00

Carole StolzInclude means two, a Me and a You.There’s so much to do and yet so fewwho care for the foreigner the one outside!Condemned to poverty as yet un-tried.No money and lonely, no status, not freeYet no worse a person than a you or a me. His crime? His birth in a different landNo fault of his own or another’s hand.His sin? That his speech is a rhythm unknownand not that of the landsmen of

Good People, Doing Nothing

2010-03-24T16:50:00.000-07:00

Carole Stolz You must be alivein order to grow.but the reverse is true- is it not so?That in order to grow,we MUST be alivewhether the way appears easy or we struggle and strive. We’ve lost alreadyif we just stand still.We don’t need to dieor be terribly ill.- just do nothingif you can.No passion or fire.No joy or élan.Nothing that grips youin the wee small hours,nor fills you

Time is Running Out (of Me)

2010-03-23T03:08:00.000-07:00

I have decided to post poems I write on my BLOG. Here are a few I wrote last week. Time is Running Out (of me)Carole Stolz Time is running out,yes it’s running out of meLike an old and leaky sand clockWhose sand is running freeLeaving empty memories of where it used to be. So search out what your dreams arefor the day is nearly spent.Your must fill it with your passion or you’ll

Can we set goals and achieve them in the changing world we live in?

2010-01-01T12:37:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I attempted to summarise the last 10 years and called to “get out there, embrace the changes and use your hands and your feet to make this world a better place for us all to live in.” How then can this look? Were any of these technological changes over the last 10 years foreseen by you? How about in your personal life? Look back over the last 10 years:- What was great, what was

The Last and the Next 10 years

2009-12-31T11:57:00.000-08:00

When I look back over the last 10 years I am astonished at how much has changed. - Ten years ago none, or few of us, were e-mailing, had mobile phones, or had surfed on the web. - Ten years ago we had neither heard of Google (1998), nor Wikipedia (2001), nor podcasts (2003), nor Facebook (2004), nor BLOGs (2004), nor Twitter (2006). - Ten years ago the iPods (2002), Wii (2006),

Been Sick

2009-11-19T14:26:00.001-08:00

Sorry. I've been in hospital with Viral Pneumonia. Back in a few days!

New Life, new character, new family, new priorities

2009-09-29T15:38:00.000-07:00

Quote from "Total Church" from Tim Chester & Steve Timmis. p.41 “By becoming a Christian I belong to God and I belong to my brothers and sisters. It is not that I belong to God and then make a decision to join a local church. My being in Christ means my being in Christ with others who are in Christ. This is my identity. This is our identity. To fail to live out our corporate identity in Christ is

Be a 7 day Christian

2009-09-26T04:06:00.000-07:00

Quote from "Total Church" from Tim Chester & Steve Timmis. "We need non-full-time leaders who can model whole-life, gospel-centred, missional living. It means thinking of our workplaces, homes and neighborhoods as the location of mission, we need to plan and pray for gospel relationships. This means creating church cultures in which we see normal, celebrating day-to-day gospel living in the

Social Justice

2009-09-20T07:39:00.000-07:00

Quote from "Total Church" from Tim Chester & Steve Timmis. P. 59 “We need to be communities of love. And we need to be seen to be communities of love. People need to encounter the church as a community of relationships rather than a meeting you attend or a place you enter.”In response to Isaiah 58, Isaiah 61, Mathew 25 and Hebrews 13, Joachim and I will be helping set up a platform where members

We are the Church

2009-09-10T03:22:00.000-07:00

Quote from "Total Church" from Tim Chester & Steve Timmis.p.37 "The challenge for us is to make the gospel the centre of our lives not just on Sunday mornings but on Monday mornings. This means ending distinctions between “full timers”, “part timers” and people with secular employment in our teams and leadership structures."We are the church. Not just the leaders are led by the Holy Spirit, but

Becoming Intentionally Missional

2009-09-10T03:14:00.000-07:00

Quote from "Total Church" from Tim Chester & Steve Timmis.p.33 "We find it easier to be radical in our thinking when we transplant ourselves outside our current situation. But we are as much missionaries here and now as we would be if we were part of a cross cultural team in another part of the world. Mission is central to us whoever we are."When I became a Christian 25 years ago, I remember

Church Without Walls

2009-07-03T09:58:00.000-07:00